RaVae EricksonMom is in Vegas shooting an archery tournament with Lane and Shane. (Well, Shane isn’t shooting, just partying, but he is there). Then she is going to California to visit Isaiah until Wednesday before coming home to start all the prep-tests for her bone marrow transplant…
Why is it so hard to think about that? Why is it so hard to imagine Mom being gone..not here…? Why is it so hard to talk about it? Why is it easier to deny any of it is happening? Why is it so hard to be encouraging or to cry with her?
Brittni and Dustin are considering moving to Oklahoma to go to Bible College…
Why is it so hard to be excited for them? Why is it so hard to encourage them to do what will be best for them in the long run?
Ever since they started hanging out with Evan again we have gotten the boot-never do they invite us to do anything with them anymore. Never do they come talk to us about anything anymore…Why does it hurt to not be included in their plans? Why does losing two friends feel like losing the world?
Fear of losing someone. Fear of change. But FEAR nonetheless is the reason it is so hard to LIVE a joyful life. We humans like things the way they are. We like knowing what is going to happen. We like control. But these desires steal our joy if we don’t let go of them. God is the only one who KNOWS what is going to happen. God is the one in control. Why is it so hard get that through out heads? Why is it so hard to just get over ourselves and let God worry about everything?
Please pray for Mom. She needs courage and strength to get through this. She will lose her hair during this process and she needs to know she is beautiful without it. She will also be even more tired and less hungry. Pray for strength. She will have to stay in the hospital. Pray that there will be MORE than enough people to visit her all the time so she doesn’t get lonely. Pray that she will be able to ask people to leave when she needs to rest. Pray for the rest of us as well…that we will know what to say and do to encourage and support her through this.
Please pray for Brittni. For wisdom and guidance to know if she is supposed to transfer to the Bible College in Oklahoma or not. For strength to be the woman God has created her to be no matter what the situation.
Please pray for Dustin. We are so confused with him right now. Pray that God will make clear to him what he is supposed to do (Go to college here and keep his full-time job, move to Oklahoma to go to college, or something else completely).
Please pray for Hubbin and I. Pray that Hubbin and I will know what to say and do to support Mom. Pray that we will be able to support one another during this time since his parents will be out of the country for three months and my Mom will be going through the transplant. Pray that we will know what to say in honesty and love to Brittni and Dustin regarding their decisions to go to Oklahoma or not. Pray that we won’t be bitter or angry with Dustin for not speaking to us anymore because it is so hard to let go of such a good friend. Pray for courage for us to be able to share our fears so they can be dispelled and replaced with trust.
Thank you for your prayers and support. (Even though I know no one reads this right now).